People

life has a funny way of surprising you in the most entertaining ways. i have learned that the best thing to do is just to live each day. and by this i don't just mean to wake up and go to work or school and then go home. i mean to turly live and experiance each and every day. to look at the worl around you and see what is there. to recognize the wonderful world tht we live in and to see what it and life has to offer. life is just better when you live it. when you actually live each day at that moment and aren't waiting for the next day to come. i have never thought "oh...i will be happy when school ends, or i will be happy when i get this, or i will be finally be happy when it is warm....i remeber that i was surprised when someone said this to me. i was thinking "what, you can't be happy today?" yes, some days i wish would pass by sooner, and some times are hard. but each day that is given to you is a gift. and you only get each day given to you once. however you choose to spend that day is how it will always be. you can't go back and change anything, you can't go back and live it again. you are given it once, and only once.

with this, you have to be the person to choose how to spend your day and who to spend it with. it occured to me recently that people are not around on earth forever. growing up, i think we always expect certain people to be around. you expect to see them at the next family thing, or the next birthday or wedding. some people you expect to see when you go to the store or when you walk into work. we all expect certain people to be in our lives everyday. we expect them to be around for everything we have decided that they are supposed to be around for. but , that is just it...we have decided what they are supposed to be around for, but we don't really know what they will be around for. it never occurs to us that one day they won't be there. that that person, or people, won't be at the birthday party, or on the train, or at the wedding. and when all of a sudden that person is not there, we are not quite sure what to do. we had always expected them to be there and when they are not we feel like something is wrong and we know someone is missing.

but i think the thing that we end up missing the most when someone passes is not the memories we already have, but the furture memories that we are now not going to have. when someone passes it finally hits us that that person is not going to be there for the birthday, the wedding, the christmas party, or even just everyday. that person is no longer going to be ther to be the one to give you a smile or wave. that person is no longer there to tease you or to laugh with you. and when a person passes away that is what hurts the most. knowing that they are no longer here on earth to make memories with you.

because of this, i have realized even more how important it is to live each and everyday. to live each and evryday to it's fullest extent. to look around the world and find things in it i had never noticed before. to take a walk down the road and see where i end up. to notice the beauty in a flower or the sky. but most importantly, to live my life with the people i love. to let them know that i love them and care for them. to make memories with today, because i don't know if they will be there to make them tomorrow. to turly love and to let myself be loved in return. i have come to beleive that that is the best way to live. to just live...