Way to long

i know...i know... it has been far to long since the last time i wrote anything.  today i have once again been reminded how much can go on at one time and how much can happen in a short amount of time.  things can change in a blink of an eye and half the time we don't even notice it.  

here is an example:

about ten minutes ago i was sitting in my office chair googling people for work,  (yes i was really looking people up on google for work)  at this same time i was jammin' out to music and listening to my boss telling me that she was leaving.  right then the fire alarm starts blaring right above my head.  in that one second i jumped up, smacked my knee on the desk and knocked my water bottle over.  also at that same second my boss jumped and dropped her bag and then proceeded to laugh at me because i had smacked my knee.  

with the fire alarm still blaring in my ear i quickly closed what i was working on and grab my purse ready to leave and walk out the door to the safety of the outside world.   me and my boss both scurry out our office door and down the hallway to the outside door.  then, since my building is under construction and it all blocked off by fences and wood coverings,  we have to go along the edge of the building until we can squeeze through a break in the fence to cross the sidewalk and get away from the building.  well.....as far away as across the sidewalk.  once there i plop down to the ground and prepare to wait it out by sleeping in the grass.  i lay back and close my eyes.  i quickly think to myself that this is not half bad.  i am laying in the shade and getting paid for it.  after about ten seconds i feel something on my arm.  i brush it aside but it  does not seem to go away.  a sit up and realize that maybe this is not the greatest place after all.  there crawling up me is a huge, and i do mean huge, gigantic spider.  now i don't mind spiders, but when they are that big and crawling on me, then i have a problem.  i flicked it away as fast as i could and then i watched it crawl to my boss and up onto her bag.  she also then flicked it away.  this whole time the fire alarm is still going off and we are all still waiting.  as of now i have decided that maybe i don't want to lay back down for fear of other things crawling on top of me.  after about a minute i do it any way and proceed to enjoy the light breeze that is blowing.  yeah, well...that only lasted about a minute before once again that stupid spider was back.  after trying to get rid of it again i figured i would just play games on my phone.  

but what do ya know.....just as i start playing we have the all clear to reenter the building and go back to work.  so i get up and say goodbye to my boss, who was leaving for the day, and make my way back in through the fenced off and boarded up tunnel to get back to my office.  

as you can tell, once i got back inside and realized that i was only going to be at work for about 15 minutes, i choose to write on here instead of doing actual work.  so there you go...i am noe back in my office typing once again and jamming out to music once again just like i was ten minutes ago....like  i said...a lot can happen and you don't even notice it.

and thats just what happened to me. that doesn't even account for what went on with everybody else.....

People

life has a funny way of surprising you in the most entertaining ways. i have learned that the best thing to do is just to live each day. and by this i don't just mean to wake up and go to work or school and then go home. i mean to turly live and experiance each and every day. to look at the worl around you and see what is there. to recognize the wonderful world tht we live in and to see what it and life has to offer. life is just better when you live it. when you actually live each day at that moment and aren't waiting for the next day to come. i have never thought "oh...i will be happy when school ends, or i will be happy when i get this, or i will be finally be happy when it is warm....i remeber that i was surprised when someone said this to me. i was thinking "what, you can't be happy today?" yes, some days i wish would pass by sooner, and some times are hard. but each day that is given to you is a gift. and you only get each day given to you once. however you choose to spend that day is how it will always be. you can't go back and change anything, you can't go back and live it again. you are given it once, and only once.

with this, you have to be the person to choose how to spend your day and who to spend it with. it occured to me recently that people are not around on earth forever. growing up, i think we always expect certain people to be around. you expect to see them at the next family thing, or the next birthday or wedding. some people you expect to see when you go to the store or when you walk into work. we all expect certain people to be in our lives everyday. we expect them to be around for everything we have decided that they are supposed to be around for. but , that is just it...we have decided what they are supposed to be around for, but we don't really know what they will be around for. it never occurs to us that one day they won't be there. that that person, or people, won't be at the birthday party, or on the train, or at the wedding. and when all of a sudden that person is not there, we are not quite sure what to do. we had always expected them to be there and when they are not we feel like something is wrong and we know someone is missing.

but i think the thing that we end up missing the most when someone passes is not the memories we already have, but the furture memories that we are now not going to have. when someone passes it finally hits us that that person is not going to be there for the birthday, the wedding, the christmas party, or even just everyday. that person is no longer going to be ther to be the one to give you a smile or wave. that person is no longer there to tease you or to laugh with you. and when a person passes away that is what hurts the most. knowing that they are no longer here on earth to make memories with you.

because of this, i have realized even more how important it is to live each and everyday. to live each and evryday to it's fullest extent. to look around the world and find things in it i had never noticed before. to take a walk down the road and see where i end up. to notice the beauty in a flower or the sky. but most importantly, to live my life with the people i love. to let them know that i love them and care for them. to make memories with today, because i don't know if they will be there to make them tomorrow. to turly love and to let myself be loved in return. i have come to beleive that that is the best way to live. to just live...

seven facts huh...

so i just realized that i was tagged by wendi and now have to do another post.  so here are seven interesting facts about myself.

1.  i absolutely do not like mushrooms or spinach.  they both just gross me out and i will not eat them. 

2.  when i run and jump i do it on my toes.  i can not run or jump flat footed.  it even takes all of my concentration to go up and down stairs flat footed.  i just do it all up on my toes.  i think this comes from years of dance.

3.  i have hit an island in the parking lot and taken out a fence in our driveway and gotten a citation for not having my lights on, but i have never gotten a ticket.  

4.  i have a weird love for the sensation of pain.  i know..crazy.  but it is true.  i like the feeling of it .. at first anyway and only when it is not horribly bad.  but i do like that feeling.  like when you pull out a piece of hair or pull off a scab..that kind of feeling. 

5.  i am the only child in my family who does not have a middle name.

6.  one thing that i absolutely love to do is watch the sun rise.  i love to watch the first rays of light come over the mountain and touch the valley or the waters edge if i am on a lake.  

7.  and last but not least...i love to be a kid.  i love to play in the sprinklers, play at a playground, build sandcastles on the beach, finger paint, draw in the driveway with chalk, and so forth.  i think i will always be a kid at heart.

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sorry...i forget

so i realized that i have not posted anything for awhile.  i sort of forgot that i had a blog page.  i guess i am not really used to it yet. 

i lot has been going on in the last month.  school ended, which is a major plus.  and i passed all of my classes so i am extremely happy about that one. but that also means that sorority ended as well.  that one i am not so happy about.  i am now no longer an officer and that makes me sad.  i loved being one and serving those girls for the past year.  people always said that it was such a sacrifice of time and energy to be an officer.  but for me i never felt that way.  for me it was never a sacrifice because i loved doing the work.  i loved being involved and spending time with all of the other girls.  i will truly miss it. 

so now, i just have work left.  which is not half bad.  i am riding the train to work now and i actually like it.  i do have to leave about a half an hour earlier, but it it worth it not having to pay for gas.   and for the first time ever, i am taking a summer class.  according to ben, it is not really a class though because it is only two weeks long from 8:30-12:00.  it still counts though.  i figured that i could handle a two week class to get it out of the way this summer.  we will see how it turns out.  i might not ever be doing it again. 

Journal Writing

today in church someone mentioned journal writing in the lesson. it wasn't event he basic topic of the lesson, but it got me thinking. probaly because i do not write in mine very often. maybe once a month if i am lucky. i was thinking about the things that we write in our journals. about the stories that we tell in them about the thoughts that we have had.

i realized something. it is something that i have realized before, but i thought about it once again. every story we live through and write down is not our own. yes, we do all have our own experiances and things that we go through that make us who we are. but what turly makes it our own experiance is how we viewi what is going on. someone else can view that same event in a toal different way and come out thinking something diferent then you. but our experiances are not just ours. our lives are all intertwined with each others. everything that we do and what we experiance is shared with someone else. even if you don't recognize it, your life is made up of others. when you tell a story it usually involes other poeple. those people have that same story to tell to others as well. most of the things that we choose to do in our lives invlove other people. and therfore, what we do effects other people.

all of our lives are entertwined with each others. by being connected to the people around you, you are then connected to the world. for the person that you are connected to is connected to someone else, and they are connected to someone else as well, and so forth until we are all entertwined into one world.

but the thing that gets me the most is that we need to be connected to all of these people to survive. man was not ment to stand alone. man was not ment to live alone or to do everything by himself. that is way god granted adam a wife. he granted adam a partner to share life with. it is only by being connect to others that we turly live. we were all put on this earth together to teach each and to help each other stand through life. god never intended for man to try to survive on his own. no man ever could. it is only by living our lives with others that we turly learn to live.

our stories are not just our own. they are those who we live our lives with. they are what makes us all who we are.