Things that make it worth it...

Do you ever have those days where you wonder to yourself if you are absolutely crazy? those day where you are sure that you have gone insane and that the world is out to get you? Or even those days where you just wish that you didn't care so that you could give up and stop trying? Well, I have. In fact, I have been having a whole week or two full of those kinds of days.

Lets just say that there are some things in life that drive me mad. And not in the angry way, but in the "I think I have just lost my mind" kind of way. There are some things that go on that make me wonder if I can just run away and never return. Some of these things involve my students beating each other up (yes, they really do)my students shouting out across the room all day long (even when they get recess taken away for it) people lying directly to my face (especially when I know that they are, people never taking responsibility for there own actions and then blaming then on others, people not doing what they have promised to do countless times, people who just tend to make life harder then it needs to be, and people who butt into others life(even when they have been asked countless times just to leave you the heck alone). The list could go on for awhile, but that is not the point of this post. So, sorry for that, but I just needed to vent a little.

So, with all of these things going on for the past little while, I realized that i have not been a very nice person or a very happy one to be around. I have been tired and irritated most days. And I don't think that I was the best company to anyone. I realized that I don't like this person that I have become. I am also realizing that in order to be the happy Brittney again, that I need to look for the things that make it worth while. I need to focus on the things that make me laugh more and the things that make me frown less. Listed below are some of the things that have made it worth while just over the last few weeks.

1)My mom, who makes me laugh and who will laugh with me
2)My students who give me hugs when i leave early (even if they do drive me nuts)
3)The sun shining through my window in the mornings
4)one of my professors tell me that i am awesome at what I do (even if i don't believe her)
5)Not having to scrape my car as much
6)Today being March 1st, which means I am that much closer to graduating
7)Learning that my friends are happy (it makes me happy to know that they are)
8)My friends who will give me reasons to laugh, even if it is at myself
9)My sister who will not only let me complain to her, but who will also complain right back with me
10)The fact that it is still light when i get out of class at night now and i don't have to walk across campus in complete darkness.

Those are just some of the things that make it worthwhile for me not to run away or to give up. I am still learning that life always seems worse when you let the bad drag you down. But, it will always seem better when you let life lift you up instead. So, as you go through your next few days, weeks, or months, try to remember that life is worth it. Try to find what makes you smile and focus on it. For that is what will make it worth while for you to live it.